52 weeks?
52 wins across different mediums.
I have terrible object permenance. I am either too focused on one thing or need to juggle mutltiple things. Combine this and I lose track of projects and goals easily because something else comes along and hogs my attention. (ex: I am reading a book with a sassy magical frog who wears an adorable crown so I have to CROCHET said frog…again in cozy yarn because its cooler and I do that now.)
I make a lot of lists to help keep my side quests on my radar. (Yes, the frog is on a list.) I love office supplies, especially some post-its. (I have a crochet specfic post-it.)
I want to pursue the things that I am excited (yet low key nervous about sharing) with vigor. However, I feel like the exhaustion of life keeps grabbing me and dragging me under the current. I am barely breathing, let along exploring these areas as voraciously as I wish.
So, I have a plan? I am going to TRACK three areas I would like to see bloom a bit more. I have three categories. I decided 52 was my number goal. There are 52 weeks in a year. It seems TOTALLY reasonable to be able to do something I want to do more at least once a week. That is where 52 comes from. However, I am tracking 3 categories. So, this is not a weekly expectation. I would love to get there, but that kind of goal can be a kill joy for me. I DO NOT WANT TO KILL JOY. These are areas where I wish to CULTIVATE JOY, even if they do sort of scare me a bit too.
I would love for a category to be hit each week, but once every 2 weeks - month would be the minimum I would like to achieve. Life can get lifey and I want this to feel like a “fun tracking of progress” not “striving for goals” thing. I want to be moving forward, crossing things off, and not in paralysis because I set a bar too high for reality.
I am sharing here, because I want to be intentional about this plan, and I am hoping to share this journey. (Keep myself accoutnable to the void.) I made trackers because I enjoy seeing progress fill in on paper. I am avoiding a rigid goal because I have worked hard not to hustle. I do not want to turn these areas into hustles, but am seeking enjoyment first. I need more enjoyment. Also, some of the products that count towards this goal will be shitty, and I want to honor the shitty as something made towards a goal too. It is too easy to push it to the aside because it is shitty. Everyone starts shitty (literally…).
My three categories are: SUBSTACK/WRITING, YOUTUBE/VIDEO creation, and ART (fiber, paint, draw, color, etc.)
ART: My inner child and teen LOVED art and crafting. I am actively working with spending time letting those passions get the love they need. They genuinely make me happy. I also like to make visuals for helping me be productive. So yes, 1 on the art tracker was making the trackers. (Crochet is allowed to be here because YA GURL will start five projects before finishing one.)
YOUTUBE: I find I enjoy making the videos for my channel. I enjoy thinking of things I wish I had when I was learning tarot. I am also terrified of being perceived and trying to get over that. So, I need some gentle encouragement to do the thing.
Substack: I miss writing essays for school. (I am a nerd.) This is leaning more reflective than researchat the moment, but research are pending and take T I M E. My educational shift to education also was a shift to be more reflective in my leanring and sharing process, so there is that too. In addition, I also would like to fuck around with fiction.
I track my reading and that has led me to read pretty much everyday. Even just a few pages. It honestly makes my day better if I start with a book for just 5-10 minutes before heading out into the world. I thought I could bring some of that magic to these areas by tracking how many times I accomplish one of these.
Please feel free to join me with your own version of hitting 52. Share what you want to do more of as this year winds down in the comments.
Elizabeth with Boars of Valor
(I am hoping to update my progress somewhere in between October-December).